Decisions! Decisions!

How I hate making decisions! I know why I hate it but it doesn't make it easier to make them! What if it makes someone mad? Or worse, what if it hurts someone's feelings? Or, Or, Or.....

My current dilemma: what to do about school: I dearly love to teach and do my volunteer teaching. It gives me something to do, something to think about and even, sometimes, something to gripe about. OK, so what's the problem???? Every derned time I go there I get sick. Not just a little cold but a real down-and-out sick-in-bed sick. My immune system stinks since the cushings bit; so I pick up absolutely everything flu shots notwithstanding (that's an interesting word). My drs. think I may get better when the cortisol gets stable; my kids think that has nothing to do with it and it is just because I'm older than dirt. My words, of course.

Dear husband says my constitution doesn't allow me to just stay home and he is right too. I can't stand just being here doing nothing and we're too far away to just jump in the car and go do stuff. But when I get sick, then I can't do the spiritual counseling I love doing at the cancer center and it is so far away that once a week is all I can do that. Woe is me!!!

And my friends at school would be so disappointed if I couldn't do that thing. It's fun and, let's face it, I'm good at it and they always let me know that. I get a warm fuzzy and need that too. With my personality, they're hard to come by!

Now WE have to decide if we want to head up the Sat. pre-service prayer time. Thankfully, that decision is shared by the husband and I'm happy. Right now, i feel somewhat negative about it but haven't really prayed it through yet. And, yes, I HAVE prayed about the other but don't have a real answer though it would seem that having gotten sick once again last week would tell me something, wouldn't it?

Well, anyway, that's all the biggies I have right now though the time may come when I have to decide if I should go back to school and take the chaplain program--though that may not come about because the chaplain who would recommend me for the program (and the tuition coverage by the hospital) doesn't really like me! That may be good.

Thanks for "listening." Now I have to go decide what to thaw for dinner.

Have a great day and remember Jesus loves you--I do too.